Dear Diary,
So you said, “Let’s be friends,” and it left me a little lost.
But then the next day, you came over. We had breakfast together, took a walk to Moore Hall, and cooked dinner side by side. It felt so simple, yet so meaningful like something I’d been quietly hoping for peace, warmth, a connection that felt real. And I realized this is what I want all a long… a shared space where we both feel at home.
It’s been up and down since we met. Some days we’re close other days, there’s distance.
Life gets busy, I know… work, kids, all the demands that come our way.
I understand that. But still, I can’t help but wish for something steady. Not always perfect, but steady something that feels safe and warm, even when life gets messy.
For once, I stayed quiet at the end of this week.
I didn’t ask questions. I just hoped you’d share what was on your mind. I know there’s so much on your plate, and maybe now is the time to face reality and say, “This is too much for me.”
If that had been said, I’d understand where we stand. But when nothing came, I realized that sometimes, silence speaks louder than words.
And that’s okay too, to accept silence as assent. Maybe it’s for the best.
I’m not angry. I’m not upset. I just know now that I need something a little clearer, a little steadier. I need a love that shows up everyday, not just when it’s easy but also when it’s not.
I need presence, consistency and a shared understanding not just in everyday tasks, but on a deeper more meaningful level. Honesty and clarity.
If you want to continue building something meaningful, I’m here.
If not, I’ll let it be. As Gestalt says, “I do my thing and you do your thing.”
And I’ll carry the beautiful moments with me grateful for the time we shared.
Because I deserve a love that is happy, steady, honest, full of kindness and effort, even when life gets busy and overwhelming.
I believe we all deserve that and I wish that for you too.
Love Kay ❤️
Go With The Flow 